Kris (The Pale Green Bed)

Chapter 59 She woke up choking for air, strangling. When she opened her eyes she saw it was only that she was tangled in the pale green silk bedspread. She had neglected to turn it down the night before. A trail of drool left a dark pool on its edge. She hoped it would dry […]

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It’s Not All Cute Print Scrubs and Bunny Blankets (Niki Floats to Pediatrics)

Chapter 55   I leave PICU, and report to the pediatric unit. No offense to my pediatric nurse colleagues, but no PICU nurse enjoys floating to pediatrics. Not because you aren’t incredibly good nurses, you are. It’s because you work way too hard in a way different from PICU nursing. In the PICU, I’m assigned one […]

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It Happens (Niki sees in contrast)

Chapter 39 “Good work, Niki. Knowing the lab results and rash indicated a severe infection, yet this information was not reported to our client, Dr. Staid until after the boy’s death points the responsibility away from him, towards the nurse, and therefore at the hospital. That’s exactly the thing we’re looking for in the chart. […]

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Buy Yourself Another One (Foraging for food on night shift)

Chapter 27 While getting ready for work I struggle over wearing my hair loose around my shoulders, foregoing the usual scrunchy-bound topknot I wear when I haven’t bothered to wash it. “Pull it together, jeez,” I reprimand myself. “He’s still married. Don’t set yourself up like this.” Pulling into the staff parking lot, I look […]

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A Mid-Tone Grey

Chapter 26 With his body wrapped around mine, Corey falls asleep before I do. Outside, the bright morning sun filters through the heavy window drapery, illuminating the bedroom to a mid-tone grey. I watched him sleep, wondering what will happen next. As if he feels my gaze touching him, Corey wakes with a start, realizes […]

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He’s Not Here For Omelets (Eggs are broken)

Chapter 25 Corey’s car is in my rear view mirror the entire drive home. For a moment I ask myself, “What are you doing?” but the thought is overcome by that floaty, out-of-body feeling I get sometimes. From here on out, I’m both audience and actor in a disconnected state. I park in the driveway, […]

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Different Sides of The Family Room (Niki talks to Simon)

Chapter 19 I fumed in the car while Simon loaded Maddie into his. He knows me well enough to realize how furious I am, but neither of us wants to have an argument in front of our daughter, or in the driveway where the neighbors will hear. So I smiled with gritted teeth while waving […]

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Return Policy (Niki comes home to a surprise)

Chapter 18 After recognizing that the baby’s ET tube was blocked, and having the nurse gonads to pull the tube, I drove home from the hospital feeling victorious. Dr. Polk’s words, “Good job,” played over and over in my head, but they weren’t loud enough to calm my stomach when I thought about Corey, and the silent […]

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Is Everything Okay? (Niki’s nursing assessment saves a baby)

   Chapter 17 I woke up in the afternoon having slept poorly after the bad dream. Schlepping my way into the kitchen, I made a cup of tea. Simon dropped Maddie off from school, and then went back to coach practice. I helped Maddie with her homework while starting dinner. During dinner Maddie chatted animatedly […]

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The Most Important Thing (Niki makes a decision)

Chapter 16 Corey put his arms around me, holding me close. My face nestles in the warm triangle where shoulder meets neck, and I can feel his carotid pulse beating against my cheek. He smells like soap and water, clean and nice. I place tiny kisses against his smooth neck, tears welling in my eyes. […]

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